Touch of Relief

2005-09-26 - 2:18 a.m.

My head feels as though it may explode from built up pressure. My stomach is on strike, and the rest of my digestive system is really pissed off at me.

I started drinking Thursday night, with Rob and Jason and then at the Monroe Hotel. Then I drank Friday and Saturday too. I didn’t get near enough sleep. I didn’t drink enough water. I didn’t eat right… I did party a lot, run about like a chicken with my head cut off and get more exercise then usual…. All in all I think that explains why I feel like ass.

I’ve turned down more sex since Thursday then I’ve gotten all summer. Some people I turned down with good reason, others I don’t know why I turned them down. But I did. It’s a change from older behavioral patterns, it shows change in me. I don’t necessarily understand the change though.

I had a good time at game and while all my plans fell through a lot of great stuff happened. The role-play was awesome and the players all seemed to be trying their damedest. Jess survived the first attempt on her life, Conner is no longer Pariah or Caitiff, there are new anarchs in the city, and Ian is coming back. Caution is going to be a by word for a while and Jess is likely to get quieter and more introspective. Her trust factor is continuing to drop.

Saw a lot of people I haven’t seen for a while. Hung out talked drank. It was actually really great. Pierce even stopped by. I haven’t seen him I forever. I’m suppose to get his Aim off of Ben and keep in touch. RJ and I hung out and talked, which was kinda cool. He’s changed a lot but a lot is still the same. He helped my broke ass out with food and stuff for the weekend and brought me a monitor for my computer. It will be nice to get my computer up and running…

So I spent the last two weekends partying. I think I’m all partied out… I’m thinking it’s time to get serious, make some changes, put some priorities in order, get some things accomplished… I have a lot of things in my life I’d like to get under control. I’ll worry more upon that later.